Wednesday, 28 September 2016


I'm waking up with tooth ache every morning as I am sleeping with my teeth clenched at night, I do have one sensitive tooth that has flared up because of the clenching.

My face and neck are covered in stress hives, I have an eruption on my lip that flares up occasionally, I treat it with tea tree oil, it stings like buggery but works fast.

I just want to put my head in my arms and bawl my eyes out, sometimes I actually do it.

Most times I get washed and dressed, I drag my sorry arse out of the house and I go to work.

I have a manic look in my eyes, yesterday we found out that changes are being made to his shift pattern with no consultation or discussion.

Today I am going to HR to talk about it.

My house need smudging as it is full of tension and stress.

I am getting my spell book out at the weekend, I'm trying to arrange a lottery win for a couple of staff members so they can take early retirement.

I am remembering the Wiccan rede which is 'An it harm none, do what you will.


Today my RAOK was not to kill anyone, and it was a pretty close run thing at times.

I was up during the night with an attack of diverticulitis, the sort where the bottom drops out of my world, only the other way around.

After that it was a trip to the Dr's for a fasting blood test, the nurse was running 30 minutes late, always good when it gets to 10 am and I've still not a cuppa. Because of the delay I had plenty of time to watch the big screen in the waiting room.

This lists an assortment of ailments, most of which I had diagnosed myself with after sitting there so long.

There was also a lot about mouth cancer and the need to avoid oral sex. I'm glad I wasn't there with a child, I could envisage many an entertaining conversation explaining that one.

There was a radio playing in the waiting room, 3 people playing games on their phones with all the associated beeps and screeching, there was also and an elderly lady with a continuous cough, I took my hearing aids out eventually as the noise level became too much.

All this added to my already raised stress levels, my L&M is still not well, changes are being made to his job whilst he's off sick, so I have raised this with HR as this is not allowed.

We are still trying to see our way forward financially so lots of juggling going on there.

I'd really like to find time to do some meditation, but every time I sit down and try, my beloved comes trotting in to ask if I'm ok, what I'm doing and if I'm annoyed with him!

Tuesday, 27 September 2016

What ever next

So someone at work has come up with the bright idea of Random Acts of Kindness probably a nice enough idea in theory but not this way.

We all had to pick a name out of jar and we have until Friday to do a RAOK for that person.

It all seems very forced and artificial, I always try to be kind to the staff that come to my room, I always help the ones that are disorganised or panicking, even those that are rude to me.

I work on the theory that they may have problems I know nothing about, though usually I do know what their problems are.

I also keep tissues in my room and staff know they can sneak in if they need a shoulder to cry on.

Now I'm faced with being kind to someone I don't know because they don't use the facilities in my room.

We have been told we don't necessarily have to spend money and that a RAOK could just be giving the person you have been allocated, a big smile!

Oh yes, I can see me tromping over to the other side of the school and leering at some poor staff member who doesn't know me from Adam!

Monday, 26 September 2016

And that saves money how?

Someone at work asked my why my grey roots were so long.
I explained that I was no longer going to dye my hair as an economy measure, so I would be going grey.
She then suggested that I dye my hair grey as there are some lovely shades of grey out there.
Erm, exactly how is this going to save me money?
Obviously she doesn't understand the concept of economy!

Sunday, 25 September 2016

How Much!!!

An email was sent out at work last week, my team's Christmas Do, £64 a head, for a boil in the bag meal in a bloody tent.
Strangely enough I won't be going, I shall be doing Christmas for less than £100.
My L&M will not be buying each other anything and we will not go mad on buying food either.
It will just be a couple of quiet days at home together, maybe a walk to the local lock if it's not too wet.


There is a large chestnut tree near where we live, Norah collected a small bagful of conkers yesterday.
She took some home with her but before she left she put some in the corners of the living room to deter spiders.
I don't mind them but Eileen and Suzy are scared of them, so Norah hopes that by leaving some here there will be no spiders here to scare her sisters.

We were piped at the post again yesterday but my L&M is visiting another property tomorrow, maybe this will be the one.

Saturday, 24 September 2016

Feeding the ducks

We have Norah staying so after breakfast and after we'd made 2 dozen sausage rolls we headed out.

We went to the park, Norah went on the swings, there was a small boy at the park with his mother, he was wearing swimming goggles.

'Allergy?' I asked his mum sympathetically.
'No' she replied 'We are going down to the lock next, he's wearing the goggles in case he falls in'.

I'm glad it's not just my kids that do funny things.

From the park we too went on to the lock, Norah reminded me that it is no longer ecologically sound to feed white bread to the ducks. So we took a small bag of frozen peas, cheap ones kept just for this purpose.

I have to say the ducks greeted the offering of peas with all the enthusiasm of a teenage boy being given a plate of salad when he'd ordered a Big mac and fries!